So wear me like a locket around your throat

Reality

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 00:52:15 GMT

I can't leave this behind, completely.
I don't know why. Maybe because it's not friend's only, and so I do want others to actually know how I feel, or maybe because I've had this stupid thing for over 2 years.
Either way, I posted this in my new one, and thought I should put it in here, too.
It's how I feel about reality. though, I'm sure that's obvious.

Reality is no fun. Actually, it kind of sucks.
The other day in health we watched this movie on drugs and whatever and the girl said she did rock climbing instead because it puts you into reality when drugs take you out. But is escaping reality from time to time really that bad? [I'm not saying do drugs to escape it, because that's not something I'm going to encourage, but really now.]
Life isn't all that it's cracked up to be. Because in reality my family lives pay check to pay check and my mom is always worrying about not having enough money. In reality, my mom can't really afford this house. In reality, I barely see my best friends; the ones I've known for 7+ years. in reality I'm not doing so great in school. In reality, people get hurt.
So tell me, what is so great about reality? Because right now, the way I'm looking at it, not many things are that fabulous. They actually never have been. No, my life doesn't suck completely. Yes, I've had some good times, but it's not like life's ever been really, really great. Tell me what is so bad about wanting to be taken out of reality every now and then because reality just sucks? Because the people around are no help to you, and it seems like your life's a movie that someone keeps rewinding and playing over and over again because nothing different happens.
Someone please tell me why it's so wrong to want to escape teenage drama and this screwed up place we call a world that so happens to be our home. I know that I like living inside my head from time to time. I know that when I block out all the nonsense and the petty drama and just let myself escape into my own little world that it feels good. So try and bring me back to reality, but reality can suck my non-existant left one because it hasn't helped me one inch along the way. It's only brought me down more. It's only made me realize that in reality, it truely is me against the world.

new journal

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 00:07:32 GMT

NEW JOURNAL.
IT IS FRIENDS ONLY SO COMMENT TO BE ADDED.

ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel ohmgroffel

Okay, so I think my point is across. ahah. ADD THAT ONE. And let me know who you are, 'kay?

I'm here

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 20:38:10 GMT

I'm here. I'm alive. Not that anyone missed me. but part of my drill is to disappear then come back when I have nothing better to do but write in this journal.

I'm thinking it's about time for a new LJ.
I will NOT be deleting this one though, just making a new name. And it will be friends only. So now the thinking process begins to think up a new username. Which sucks, because I kinda suck and I'm not creative. It'll be simple, it'll be me. But putting those two together and making something up that I actually like is that crappy part.
If you wanna be a friend on my new journal [when it's made] leave a comment.

Tracie's birthday was on the 9th. She's 17 now. Only a year 'til she's 18. I gotta make her a mix so I can send her package out today since it's already late, but I suck. I'm a procrastinator and that will never, ever change. I got her a pillow with a monkey on it, a monkey Beanie baby, scrapbooking stuff, and Silverchair- Neon Ballroom. So the mix will be the finish and I get to send it out.

School has been the suck. Once again I've decided doing homework is not something I need to do. I won't be surprised if my grades in Algebra && Sign language have dropped since interims. We don't have any stupid days off this month which might just drive me insane. Maybe, ya know, I can get sick and not have to go.

I wish TODAY was Friday

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 02:13:47 GMT

So, I have good grades so far this quarter. SFJDSK. yay. My mom will be happy since they were they suck last quarter.
Though, my Art grade is only good because on our interims she didn't put in 0's for the missing work. And I have a whole bunch of missing stuff. So I actually technically have an F in that class, but.... my mom never has to know, right? heh.

Sean-E comes home on Saturday!! w00t w00t. Too bad I won't be here, but that's okay. I'm going to my dad's earlier in the day and I don't think Sean's going but it's all good. It'll be nice to have a full house again. even without one person it seems quite empty. Lord, I don't know what I'll do whenever he moves. I guess I got lucky having a brother who still lives at home and he's 20. heh. He might not enjoy it, but it surely keeps me a bit more sane then I would be if it was only me and my mom.

Tracie's birthday is comming up. Oh man, I need to do some shopping. Her b-day is the 9th and I have one thing. crapppp. And I still have to send it, which means it will probably get there late. BOO. Man, she turns 17. then next month Deanna turns 17. Everyone's turning 17 and I just turned 15. ahah.

more of my autobio

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 02:09:59 GMT

More of my autobiography.
I'm posting it as a whole, but I only added 1 new part.
tell me if anything's wrong, or if it sucks or if you like it. Tell me something.

Me? Well, that’s exactly who I am, just me. I was born Rachel Marie Nebel on January 17, 1991. My parents are Shane and Sherri and I have a brother, Sean. I have a step family, too; Donna- my step mom, Becky- my step sister, and Robbie- my step brother. Out of all my siblings I am the youngest, by far. Becky is 21, Sean is 20, Robbie is 18, and here I am, stuck at 15. Not only am I stuck at 15, but I’m stuck in Virginia. The same state, the same city, and even the same house I’ve been in since I was born.

There aren’t many things I remember from before the age of 10, but there are a couple things I can think of that either affected my life or anything in general that are either funny, or sad. One of which happened when I was real young, around two. I was riding my Big Wheel and my mom called me and said “Rachel, come on, drag it on in here!” from the garage. Well, I guess I misunderstood her because I went running to the garage, looked around and said “Where is it?!” my mom was puzzled. “Where is what?” she asked. I simply replied, “The dragon”.

Another thing that has affected my life before the age of 10 is my parents divorce. They separated sometime in 1992; I was between a year and a year and a half old. I grew up living in two houses. I went to my dad’s house every other weekend, but for the majority of the time, my brother and I lived with my mom because of school and such. I pretty much had [and still have] two of everything; two Christmas’, two Thanksgivings, two houses, two families. I was used to my dad picking Sean and I up and us going to his house, but I was still young, so I didn’t really understand why. Then again, do we ever truly understand why?

There are two things that impacted my life afterthe age of 10. One of which was when my brother’s close friends Shane was in a car accident. I remember waking up to the phone ringing on a summer morning. I asked my mom who had called when she poked her head in my room; she told me it was Mrs. Friend [Shane’s mom] and that Shane was in a car accident. I didn’t really think much of it until my mom said “So get dressed, we’re going to go to the hospital and see him”. After that I didn’t really know how bad it was, but it couldn’t have been good. My mom and I waited for my brother to come home from work and when he got home he sat down on the couch and started crying. Now, I had never really seen my brother cry, so I knew it had to be pretty bad. While Sean showered and got ready my mom told me Shane was in a coma. We couldn’t actually seen Shane at the hospital, only family could, so Mr. and Mrs. Friend said Sean was family so he could go back and see Shane. I don’t remember how long Shane was in a coma, but after he woke up he was in and out of didn’t hospitals having surgeries and therapy since he shattered his eye sockets, had a fractured skull and short term memory loss. I don’t think anyone can imagine what he had to go through. My mom and I visited him in different hospitals, but not often. The drives were often long and my mom and I usually had school or work the next day. My brother, on the other hand, drove to the hospitals all the time, despite how far they were. He even came to the beach later than the rest of the family because Shane had just had a surgery so he wanted to be able to visit him. After the accident I learned that even strong people break and through the worst of times we can make it through.

Another thing that changed my life after the age of 10 happened about a year and a half ago. I’ve known my best friend Tracie since I was seven, so I was pretty close with her mom, and she was close with my family. Well, last year Tracie’s mom got really sick. She’s always had really bad diabetes but this was bad. She was in the hospital for awhile, but she started to get better. While she was in therapy she got sick again, and had to go back to the hospital. One day I was out to eat with my friend Deanna, my brother, and his girlfriend, Leah, when someone called my brother’s cell phone. They asked for me so he handed me the phone. Through the sobs I could make out that it was Tracie, and when I asked her what was wrong she said “she died, Rachel. My mom died”. I was speechless. Someone I had known for so long, who I could have considered a third mom, had passed away. Everyone thought she was getting better, it was just so unexpected. Ms. Robinson [Tracie’s mom] was only in her mid to early 40’s. Tracie’s parents were never married, and she doesn’t know her dad all that well, so this hit her really hard. Not only is Tracie’s mom gone, but now Tracie lives all the way across the country in California, where she didn’t know anyone at first, and she had to leave everything she knew behind.

read this

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 03:17:44 GMT

There aren’t many things I remember from before the age of 10, but there are a couple things I can think of that either affected my life or just things that are significant. One of which happened when I was real young, around two. I was riding my Big Wheel and my mom called me and said “Rachel, come on, drag it on in here!” from the garage. Well, I guess I misunderstood her because I went running to the garage, looked around and said “Where is it?!” my mom was puzzled. “Where is what?” she asked. I simply replied “the dragon”.

Today kinda sucked.

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 03:19:16 GMT

Ya know, if you're going to ditch me, straight up tell me so. Okay, so I don't expect anyone to say "hey I'm ditching you" but freakin' tell me you're doing something else. Or atleast tell me before the day of so that way I can ask other people if they want to hang out.
kthxbi.

[my day was uneventful. I pretty much got ditched. cool, eh?]

burr

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 23:34:01 GMT

Oh man. It's been a LONG time since I've updated on here. So here I am. And I'm going to attempt to tell you all how boring my life has been.

But first off, this is definitely different from the last time I've updated. and the LJ-cut is weird. I don't know how to do it. mehh. I'll have to play around with it.

So, school has been alright. My grades for 2nd quarter were bad so my mom was all pissy, but whatever. Doesn't bother me. but I do have to try to do a little better this quarter, atleast. I'm in health now, this quarter. And I really don't like my teacher. She's all... blah. She's just annoying. And she's in dire need of a hair cut, because hers is terrible. No lie. It's like a semi-mullet. We're only about 2 weeks, maybe 3 weeks, into the 3rd quarter and I already have a C in biology and am using my last late homework pass. It sucks. FDDKJS. grrr.

I've been going to local shows for the past few Friday's with Brittany, and then last week Jenna came with us, and the week before that Meghan && Deanna came with us. it's pretty cool. We're going the 24th. Transition is playing. w00t w00t. Then we're going some time in March to see Ohme! Ohmy! play again. Our Friday nights are pretty much expected to be at shows.
I've been hanging out with Brittany a lot more, lately. Like I said, these past few weeks we've gone to shows together, and we've had sleep overs and I've just been going over to her house and hanging out. She's not one of those people that I get annoyed of if I hang out with them a couple days in a row. She's really cool and all.

Saturday I believe I'm hanging out with Katherine, and we'll be going to Starbucks and possibly having Manhatten Bagel and all that fun stuff.
Then Sunday after Brittany gets off of work I'm spending the night at her house because we have Monday off. We may possibly be going to a movie, or just renting one. And Monday I believe we're going to the mall and having the people at Mac do our make-up and what not. So this weekend should be fairly good. Now I just have to try to find something to do on Friday so I'm not sitting around doing nothing all night. because I hate, hate, hate, doing that on weekends. Who doesn't, though?

We had a snow day on Monday. It was rad. we got around...6+ inches of snow. It's probaby the most snow we've had all winter, which is kind of goofy since it's Early/Mid Febuary and what not. But hey.

Uh, I think that's it.
I'll try to update this more often.
It's not my fault I suck at life. I swear it's not.

so today..

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 05:17:18 GMT

Today was a good day.
School wasn't bad and I had my birthday dinner, which was really fun since we went to Paolo's where Jessika, her brother, Eric, && Marcus work. It was really good, we've never been there before. everyone was really happy with the food and everything. And Jessika bought me a piece of cake. <3. that was yummy too.
It was funny becuase when we were leaving Eric came over and was like "what, you're not gonna say bye?!" and I was like "well..psh.." and he asked if it was good and everything and I told him it was very delish. and he was like "yeah, jess was like 'I need to get her a cake!' so I said 'can you get me cake?' and she just looked at my and shook her head" which was funny. Then he said something like..he was going to get me some desert but he didn't know if I'd like it or not and I said "well, I don't know if I'd like it" so we were saying bye and he held out his hand then gave me a hug. And I said by to Jessika and she said happy early birthday and what not. It was really nice. The restruant was nice, the food was definitely really good, and it was a bonus knowing people that work there.

Tomorrow morning I'm going to the bowling alley with Melissa since we haven't been there in forever so we're going to see everyone we haven't seen in ages. So that shall be fun. Then hopefully my maja will take me to West Virginia because Josh && Sarah both really want me to come up and hang out. And apparently me and sarah have catching up to do because lots has happened in her world in the last few weeks. I really just want to get away from here since I'm here all the time and there's never anything to do. It gets so boring with Deanna working on the weekends and everything. mehh..

that's about it..

so hm...

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 00:45:09 GMT

I haven't actually 'updated' this in awhile, so let's see what there is to say.

I definitely just woke up from a 2.5 hour nap, only because my mom called me. Bah. I probably would have slept all night, too.

Well, I obviously went to West Virginia and hung out with Josh && Sarah over break, since I already posted pictures. then it was back to school. In gym we started the Fitness unit so we have to do the cardio bikes for 30 minutes then we have to rotate around the different weight stations for 30 minutes. The stupid seats on the cardio bike hurt your butt really bad. It starts hurting after like..10 minutes and it's like "oh jesus christ, we have to be on here for another 20" it indeed sucks. but it's a good workout so whatever.

Next Tuesday is my birthday! w00t w00t. We're going out to eat Friday though because Jessika only works Fridays && Saturdays. And hopefully I'm going up to West Virginia that Saturday then staying until Monday. mm i sure hope that works out because I wanna go up there again.
It's not like we do anything different, we really just hang out. But I'm tired of always sitting at my house because I see it every day of my life and there's nothing to do. So it's always nice to get away and everything.

piktahs from west virginia

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 23:57:55 GMT

Sarah && me

everyone just hanging out

Sarah, Carrie && Cindy like to grope eachother

Andrew

Heather likes being odd

Mike && Carrie (Ballroom dancing, say what?!)

Carrie

Carrie likes to lick Sarah....

Andrew let Sarah put make up on him

Sarah's younger brother, Dylan

Josh (Sarah's older brother) is really good at playing guitar

Andrew && Josh. They like to tell people they're gay lovers. Sometimes I think they're not kidding.

Today was Josh's 18th birthday. god, time flies. He wants me to go there this weekend and hang out with all of them, but I don't know if I can. He said he'd try to find me a ride, though. So we'll see. If not, I'm hopefully going up there for my b-day.

stupid rant

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 04:30:02 GMT

I hate not being able to do anything. I hate how the people in my neighborhood are annoying as crap and need to be shot in the face, so I only hang out with Deanna. And now she has a job so I sit here on my butt. I hate being 14 so I can't go get a job for myself, because I hate not having any money.
I hate school. I hate pretty much all people teachers. The students at my school are so lame. They all think they are coolxcore and they really aren't. Maybe one day they will learn.
You know what I hate the most though?
That Tracie was supposed to come down the monday after Christmas && visit for a week, and now she's not. Because she decided not to. Her uncle is finally letting her come down after over a year and she chooses not to come see her "best friends". That's pretty screwed up if you asked me. me && sarah were//are both really pissed about that. It's like... who would pass up the opportunity to go see their friends and be back in there home town, and have a good time && what not? If that was me I would have been down here in a heart beat. I'm just pissed because I got all excited because ya know, her uncle && her dad both already said she could come and stay, so it was pretty much a sure thing. Then she calls and tells me she's probabaly not comming down until June. June. Christ. That'll have been almost two years since I've seen her. And this is all her choice, too. And there really is no good reasoning behind it. Unless there's something she's not telling me.
I haven't talked to her since last week so I dunno. I'll have to call her up tomorrow or something. She usually calls me on the weekends so I'm sure I'll talk to her. And I'm sure she'll call to say Merry Christmas on Sunday. She's just like that. GAH. I miss that ho so much. I wish she'd just take the chance and come down here and see us all. My mom, Leah, sarah.. everyone wants to see her. It's so lame.

And my god. I am freezing. Remind to put socks on next time I am going to sit down stairs. :( and my hands are really cold to. I dislike the cold weather.Like, it's nice when it's sorta cool, but i think i am gonna freeze to death. That'll be the day.

I'm so glad it's winter break. I can finally sleep in. And stay up late. and not have to deal with lame teachers, or homework. I so wish I was out of school. But I have 3 more years + the rest of this one, to go.

Uneventful

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 01:44:03 GMT

Nothing too exciting has been going on.
School is the usual. We're doing volleyball in Gym which is cool because it's not boring or anything. We're playing against the sophmores sometimes and our team totally rules. Too bad I think we might be getting new teams next class.
I totally failed a stupid algebra test. I hate that class. I am so bad at math it's not even funny. It's quite frustrating, actually.

I lost the 3 pounds I gained back +1. w00t. I'm looking to lose anywhere from 3-5 pounds by next Tuesday which is definitely possible if I keep drinking lots of water, eating better and exercising.If I lose 5 pounds then I will have reached my short term goal weight. hells yeah.

My ear has been bothering me a lot. I think I have an ear infection. not cool. at all. Or it could be sinus pressure. I have no idea. If it doesn't stop bothering me soon my maja's going to have to call the doctor.

layout

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 14:48:38 GMT

Does anyone know any good sites/communities with layouts or would anyone be willing to make me a layout?

It's time for a new one.

that time again

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 23:30:25 GMT

I do believe it's time for an update. Not much to say, but I haven't updated in awhile, so yeah.

Let's see.... school's the usual. I have a B+ in ASL, w00t w00t, I have a C in Bio, an F in algebra and an F in gym. and those are the only grades I know so far. We get interims in a week or two so I really need to bring up my Algebra && Gym grade. blah.

I gained back like 3 or 4 pounds since I got off the weight watchers thing but I'm back on it now so hopefully I'll lose it again. I am so bad at sticking to things.

I really need to start Christmas shopping. I really don't know what to get people. My mom wants a purse && a waffle iron. So Sean && I will probably get her one of those. And we may get her something else too. I know she wants a dvd player so we were thinking one of them dvd/vcr players because she still records things on VHS and what not. I was thinking maybe get her the Blind Melon greatest hits thing or whatever because she likes Blind Melon and I already burned her copies of Nico && the self-titled Cd. Sean... well, I really have no clue what to get him. I was thinking maybe look online && find a band shirt. I know he wants a new band hoodie but we can't find any websites with 2x ones. boo for that. We got my dad this little bussiness card holder but we'll probably get him something else, too. I have no idea what to get Donna (my step mom) my dad mentioned she wanted a football jersey of one of the old Redskins players but she mentioned it to Robbie so we have to make sure he's not getting it for her. And I have no idea what we're getting for Becky && Rob. and then there's my friends. I know I am getting Deanna this shot glass holder thing she can hang on her wall because she collects shot glasses but has no where to put them now since she switched rooms && I'll probably get her an Adicts poster, too. Blah. luckily.... the 13th my mom is giving me a 'mental health day' because I have to go to the doctor so she's not gonna make me go to school and she's going to take off and we're going to go out to eat && go christmas shopping.
As of now, I only have 50 dollars. Which isn't nearly enough for all the presents but my mom said if I start doing extra chores around the house she'll pay me more so that's what I have to start doing.

mehh

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 21:13:15 GMT

I had a half day today but my mom just let me stay home because it's pointless since we pretty much do nothing in most of my classes. Then we *obviously* have tomorrow off for and Friday, too.
Tomorrow I am going up to PA for Thanksgiving. My aunt && uncle live up there and most of the family goes there and we all have dinner and all that fun stuff.

I lost another 3 or 4 pounds. w00t w00t. Now I just need to start exercising more because after awhile just eating right is not going to cut it. But about 7 more pounds and I will have reached my short term goal weight. Hells yeah.

Ahha duuudue, wtf! The mail man came down our street (I live on a private drive/pipe-steam thinger and the mailboxes are on the end of it) to drop a package off at the Pinson's house (they live across the street) and he just tossed/threw the package onto their porch. Lazy, much? I mean, what if there was something in there that could have broken or something? mehh.

I had to clean up around the computer room. mmehhh. It was mostly my crap so I guess that's understandable, though. I did a little today and I'll finish later or another day. I really just have to get the papers and what not that fell behind the computer desk and go through the box of my junk and see what I need && I don't.
My maja said if I start doing some extra chores around the house she'll pay me a little more because I need money for Christmas time. Because most of the time I have no money so Sean ends up paying for all the gifts (like, the ones for our mom, dad && step family) then I owe him like, 70 bucks afterwards and it is the suck.

annnd speaking of Christmas... it's time for me to start preparing to send out Christmas cards. So post your address in a comment or e-mail it to me at Cant.Save.Us.Now@gmail.com if you want a card. If you live outside the US, that's okay! I'll send you one.

report cards, randomnes... and..yeah..

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 01:51:56 GMT

We got report cards. I had a D+ in Gym (stupid "if you're late you can't dress out" crap), a B in Art, and the rest were C's && C+'s. meh. I could do better but whatever. I'm passing all the classes so I don't really care.

I've lost 4 pounds. w00t w00t. Go Rachel. Go Rachel. ha. That was last week though. I weigh every Tuesday so... Tuesday I'll know if I've lost anymore. Which, I believe I have. atleast I hope I have.

I went to Alex's birthday party today. It was at Cici's. we all just kinda hung out then played games. we totally rocked at Jurassic (sp?) Park. except not. because it was hard because you couldn't see where you were shooting. which was pretty lame. And I got schooled at air hockey because it always bounces out of the goal on 1 side. And I'm not just saying that. Anyone could be playing and it alwayyyysss bounced out on that one side. LAME LAME LAME. But whatever. It was fun. I got her candles that smelled quite good. She thought so, too. As did her sister and maja.

hm.. I don't think I've updated since I went to the neurologist..soo.
This past Tuesday I went to the Neurologist. They figured out it was migranes and put me on some migrane medicine. And I'll tell ya, this little pill works really good. I usually don't get headaches now, and if I do they are really small. It really does make a huge difference. Because I forgot to take my pill last night (I take the pill at night) and today I had a throbbing headache. Now I know to remember to take my pill. heh. He also gave me a pill to take when I get a headache. It's Midirin I believe. It's basically just like a tylonel but stronger, I believe.

Last night owned

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 15:35:10 GMT

fdlksaj.
Reel Big Fish totally owned last night. it was GREAT.
There was tons and tons of traffic getting there (it was in Towson, MD and I live in fairfax, va) so we missed the first band and got there in the middle of the second. The 2nd band (I don't know who it was) was pretty good.
but fkjdsak Reel big Fish kicked so much ass. They played (these are the ones I can remember off the top of my head && in no particular order) Turn the Radio Off, Sellout, Trendy, She has a girlfriend now, Beer, S.R, the fire, Don't start a band, the bad guy, your guts, and they did a cover of Boss D.J. definitely was a good show. I went with eden && brianna. we were in the mosh a lot or dancing, twas fun. I brought a disposable but didn't take any pictures.
I'm going to take a nap. I'll tell more later, i s'pose.

BOO!

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 15:42:20 GMT

Thursday night I only got 1.5-2 hours tops of sleep. It sucked nuts. I was like.. awake. I just couldn't sleep. I got out of the shower around 10:45, then looked through a magazine for 10 minutes then tried to go to sleep and I couldn't. So I was just going through other magazines. I finally fell asleep around 1:30. but oh wait.. then I woke up at 2:45 and couldn't get back to sleep. I fell asleep like...10 minutes before my alarm started going off. (it starts going off at 5:40). It was cool. So Friday I was running off little sleep. luckily it was only a half day. BUT... it went by as slow as a regular day. LAMELAMELAME.

Yesterday Sean, Leah && I went out to eat because my mom had to do a field trip and wouldn't be back 'til later. We just went to Anitas.

I'm doing weight watchers again. Kinda. I'm just doing the points plan thing and not going to the meetings because we saved all the stuff form when we joined a couple years ago. I am allowed to eat 28 points a day and then the 35 flexpoints for the week. I used the flexpoints at dinner last night, obviously.

MONDAY IS REEL BIG FISH.
With Brianna and maybe Eden. w00t w00t. it shall be grand. I know you're all jealous.
shhhhit, i'm jealous of myself.
only kidding, kiddies.

You all should comment with some bands/artists/songs to download. I need new music for a mix or 2. yep.

friends hold me together

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 14:39:18 GMT

This weekend was pretty good, actually. w00t w00t.

Friday my dad picked me up. we all(my step sister, step mom, dad && i) went out to eat then just sat around the house and watched movies and what not.

Saturday was Robbie's football game in Richmond. We left around11:45 isshhhh and it took us about 2 hours to get there. Sadly, they lost. But Rob did get to come home that night! He goes to Virginia Military Institute and they are strict and what not about when students can leave and what not. Got home nad I finished Lords of Dogtown and started another movie. fell asleep. that kinda stuff. ya know..

Sunday I hung out with Nikki, Sarah && Tristan for an hour. Then I had to go back to my maja's house. Later Sarah && Nikki came down hurr (to my mom's house) and spent the night. we went to the park and were picture whores. that kind stuff. Then we all added/changed stuff to our myspaces because we're losers. but we're still cooler than you.

Monday we went to Best Buy then back down to Sterling and hung out. We hung out with Matt && Tristan. We were at Nikki's house most of the time then we went to the shell station && starbucks. then came back since Leah had to pick me up.

Today I get to go bra shopping! YAY. ahah. I actually am happy. i need some new bras.
I need new pants, too. I have 3 and one pair is ripped near my knee/upper thigh and they're ripping in the inner thigh too. I've had 'em for years though. blah. I hate clothes shopping.

that's pretty much it..
I'll post the picture of me saruhh and niggi later.

today was

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 02:15:24 GMT

Today was quite uneventful.

School was pretty boring.
I was late to Gym, which sucks. I was happy since i had a C and now I am probably down to a D because of it. I was right by the doors but noooo, we can't even be a foot away and get in. lame.
English we just got to hang out and talk so it was cool.
Art's getting really boring since we're doing paper mache.

I have a headache. As if that's a surprise.
I pretty much have one 24/7 and it's getting really freakin' obnoxious. I think I am going to croak.

Sean-E took me to Starbizzy. yumm iced caramel machiatto. heh.

Uber tired

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 03:27:54 GMT

jdsklf. I had some of this written out then I messed something up and it got deleted. I suck hardcore.

Schools been the usual. boring, nothing exciting/new going on. I'm passing Gym with a C now, I had an F at interim time, so w00t w00t. I've been on time so I've been able to dress out and all that shizz.

I talked to Tracie today. I hadn't talked to her for like, a week. She hasn't really been doing anything. work and what not.

I went to the bookstore today and got 2 books. Rainbow Boys && Perfect World. I've already over halfway done with Rainbow boys. heh. I obviously have no life, if you can't tell. That and I'm a fairly fast reader.

Leah called this morning at like, 8:15 and woke me up.blahhhhhhhhh. I swear it's so annoying. my mom was like "yeah you'll have to remember to turn your ringer off on the weekends" and I just said "well usually people aren't us at 8 in the morning so I have no need to!" she was calling to let my maja know that Sean was at her place, though.

Thursday I did fairly good on my 'diet'. I ate like, 760 calories. I wasn't really trying to have that little or anything, it's just it happend. Friday I was doing good until we went out to eat and I had a veggie burger, fries, and then cheese fries for an appatizer. And I had like, 4 sodas. go me. and today I pretty much ate whatever. I suck at this.
Tomorrow I am going to get back on track and write what I eat and that stuff. And hopefully I'll get on the gazelle or exercise in some form or another.

I'm so freakin' tired right now that I can probably conk out right when I lay down. I hate, hate, hate not sleeping in on the weekends. It's uber lame.

Sean was going to a Halloween party tonight. he goes to one pretty much every year. He was being some killer clown type thing. pretty much like the guy from house of 1000 corpses, i believe. he was doing his make-up and stuff at the party so I didn't get to see it and take pictures but he took his camera so hopefully he'll have some.

this is pretty much what it looks like all around Sarah's house

Why hellooooo there (Sarah && Nikki)

me && Sarah

Sarah's brother Josh... playing the guitar

After a long hard day of doing what we do best, Nikki conked out

Me && Sarah ( i look like crap but sarah looks cute)

annnd Sarah got lost in a might jungle..

Josh likes doing the dishes a whoooooole bunch

Nikki's not much of a morning person

the back of Lindsey, Sarah, Josh, Nikki, && Robert

Nikki, Sarah && Carrie

Me, Sarah && Carrie

and again..

Karla...and the rad glasses

Carrie and the rad glasses... and josh in the background

Nikki, Carrie, Karla, Robert, Sarah && some other kid whose name I don't know

Sarah, Carrie && Stephanie

the end.

suck a nut

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 23:56:45 GMT

I went to the eye doctor yesterday. It's not my eyes that are causing my headaches.
I went to the regular doctor today. I don't have a sinus infection. But I am getting a referral to the neurologist (headache doctor). so that should be good. maybe they can figure out what's wrong with meh.

I'm using my Greatestjournal again.If any of you have one, feel free to add me. it is friends only.
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School needs to burn

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 01:14:39 GMT

Let's see, where do I begin today?

I have a terrible headache, it's pretty much throbbing. I am extremely tired and I need to shower && shave.
My bus came today around 7:10-7:15 ish, I believe. It's really obnoxious waiting outside for the stupid bus since it's pretty damn cold out. I mean, a little late, what ever, but 30 minutes is just ridiculous to the point where... I don't even know. it's driving me crazy though.

I have gym tomorrow. God, I really do not want to go. hopefully I won't be late though, because I need to dress out. I really do not want to be taking this class my junior year. that is really the last thing I want to do.

ASL was really boring today. Thank god kat is in my class or I think I would have died of boredem 58493 times over and over again. we watched some really boring movie. blah.
BUT HO-SNAP. Guess what Rachel got on her Biology project? I got a B! w00t w00t. I'm uber proud of myself. I was expecting a c or a d, not a B. score big points for Rachel.

I wish this Friday would hurry up and come. All I want to do is just hang out with some friends and have a good time. I am so, so, so sick of school. And being in this house all the time is driving me crazy, too. So I'm glad i'll be somewhere else for the weekend. and especially when i'll be with some of my bestest friends. <3

I believe we get our school pictures tomorrow. I don't even want to see what mine look like. I am pretty sure I look like absolute shit. It was the first period of the day so I was pretty much half asleep, my hair was still wet and I have an extremely fake smile. oh joy. maybe they'll turn out better than I think, though. meh, who knows? not me. atleast not yet.

I watched Mean Creek again today. I really enjoy that movie. I'm going to ask for it for Christmas because I'm too broke to buy it for myself. heh. but seriously, if you've never seen it, GET IT. I love it. yep. I do, i do, i do-ooo.

Okay, now I'm pretty much just babbling since i'm tired so I suppose I'm going to go.

That's when you st-st-stutter something profound

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 00:10:45 GMT

I haven't updated in awhile.
Nothing really exciting is going on.

My bus has been late picking us up in the mornings because the driver is lame.
It didn't come until 7:15 yesterday. Today we waited until around 7:15 and it still wasn't there so Deanna and I came back to my house, chilled and looked to see if any good shows were commin around, then hopped into bed and watched a movie. Then my maja came home and took us to school around 10:00. Good thing for me because that meant I came in during the middle of gym so I didn't have to run the mile. w00t w00t. Now I just have to make it up. blah. When i went to my gym teacher I handed him the pass and he was like "when are you going to start dressing out" and I just looked at him and was like "um.. i was late to school. It's an excused tardy. I'm not allowed to dress out today." I hate him. Whenever me and other people aren't dressed out he only says things to me and he won't say anything else to the other people. He doesn't really like me, if you can't tell.

I am hopefully getting a cell soon. It's gonna be pre-pay and I have to pay for it, but I'm most likely getting verizon and pretty much all my friends have verizon so I can call/text 'em for free. w00t w00t.

I have a headache.
And I have to start homework. School is driving me nuts and I can't stand it. Like, all my teachers are against me, I swear it. ha. Except Mr. Laub, he's cool. And I don't really like Mr. Spear, but he's not that bad. and ms arrington is okay. all my other teachers pretty much suck. blah.
Especially my gym and bio teacher.

This Friday I am going up to Sarah's and staying there for the weekend because Friday is her 16th birthday. man I feel young. pretty much all my close friends are older than me. ahha. But yes, she's having like, a birthday party type thing up at her house, and it's going to be grand. And Nikki is going to be there and all so it's going to be like the good 'ol days when we all just used to hang out.
Except Tracie won't be there. :( laaaaaame.

fjdsaklfjjdsklfj. Crap. I just remembered I have a sign langauge project due tomorrow and I haven't even started. I have to watch an hour of t.v on mute with the captions on then write a report. someone shoot me in the face, please. you'll be doing me a favor.